Rationalized my sins.
Tim, this is my story.
"Jesus died so that our sins could be forgiven and we could have eternal life." I've known this practically my entire life; I even thought I understood it.
However, a film reenacting the crucifixion spoke to me in a new way. In my brokenness, I came to a new understanding of the unbearable suffering that Jesus must have endured when He paid the debt of all mankind's sins on the cross.
I rationalized many of my sins throughout the years. But feeling righteous indignation, I was wishing hurtful things to happen to a person who had hurt me. I even thought that God would be angry with and anxious to punish this person.
Instead I learned God loves each and every one of us, this other person included; and His greatest hope is that each of us will come to Him for forgiveness and accept Jesus as Lord and Savior.
Do we even begin to understand how much God loves us? Have you ever been wounded so deeply that you thought you couldn't get past the hurt?