Well, it happened. It hit me while sitting in my office on Wednesday, October 3rd. It meaning, "Steve, what are you doing! You know nothing about multi-sites! You shouldn't of taken this new position. There are so many people who are FAR more qualified than you to do this."
"It" went on like that for most of the morning. Not voices in my head but my mind slowly spiraling downward focusing on my feelings of inadequacy and inabilities. To be honest, it scared me.
I'm so glad God is omniscient and omnipresent. With God all-knowing and ever-present, He was able to speak to me. Not immediately, but eventually, through unique means.
Friday morning, October 5th, found me reading out of my Daily Light, which is a compilation of morning and evening readings with verses focused around a specific theme.
The morning reading took my breath away. The first verse was from Psalm 50.15, "Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me." The next verse was Psalm 42.11, "Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God." Later on was Psalm 103.2, "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits."
Obviously I was stunned and so very thankful. Those verses were perfect for me.
Question... Are you feeling really, really inadequate? I encourage you to look to God and let Him speak to you.
Later this month I had a good friend and fellow staff member tell me I was perfect for being a campus pastor. I said really? Why? She answered, "You love God with all your heart and you don't know quite what to do or what you are doing."
I couldn't help but smile. Here during this month God spoke to me through His word and through a friend of mine. I encourage you to be honest with God and ask Him to not only speak to you in various ways but that you also will hear what He has to say.
On the Journey,